I suffered from a social complex related to food- I could not open up in front of strangers neither could I eat in front them.I confronted this pattern the most when I was in the army. I couldn't bear the fact that people would see me eating. I was sitting very hungry with everybody in the dining room unable to put anything in my mouth.I would put some food in my plate and only eat few bites. I felt that everyone was looking only at me and watching what I was eating.
I felt really frustrated and disappointed in myself, I didn't understand what was happening to me; "on the one hand, I'm hungry, but on the other hand I cannot eat."In the evening when the dining room was closed, I was eating in my room, sometimes I would ask my friend to come with me and buy some chocolates at the supermarket of the base. When I was in company of my friend I could eat, but there were days that there was nobody to come with me, I was so hungry and still wouldn't allow myself to eat in front of people in the dining room.The turning point was when I went to sleep over for the week end at some friend's place and couldn't put anything in my mouth for two days! It broke me down, people would propose me to eat and I would say that I am not hungry even though, within me, I was shouting out of hunger, calling out for food. And so, towards the end of the week end, I almost fainted and my stomach really ached from hunger.The event scared me out; I didn't understand what was happening to me, why I couldn't eat anything when I was in company of other people. It felt so weird to me as if something took over me and wouldn't let me eat. I wanted to but couldn't.I then realized that I had to go to therapy.I started to look for a cure when I heard about Arian Lev who is specialized in the subconscious. When I watched her lectures on YouTube, it really talked to me, I decided to go for it.In treatment, I have been exposed to the tremendous power of the subconscious; I understood that the cause of this complex originates from childhood. I was 8 years old and my mum saw that my head was infested with louse and decided to cut my hair out completely until boldness, I looked like a boy.Then everywhere I went, children and adults looked at me in a negative way and giggled. I saw they could not tell if I am a boy or a girl. Children would laugh at me, make fun of me and even humiliate me.That was a real tough social trauma to me. At this same moment, I burned in my subconscious the conditioning woman = humiliation. I experienced this event as a personal humiliation as well as humiliation related to my femininity.I found out that my social anxiety would not only appear in food situations, but also during general life events whenever people looked at me, I would feel the same pressure as I felt then in front of the children at 8 years old.I wanted to disappear and run away. When I walked down the street I didn't want people to see me.It was very difficult because people tended to compliment me and tell me how gorgeous I was but I couldn't stand it since I couldn't feel it. I would tell people to leave me alone.In treatment, the event of the haircut in my subconscious was switched and the conditioning woman = humiliation reprogrammed to woman= power and security.The treatment changed my life, I'm now able to walk down the streets, get on a bus or go elsewhere feeling absolutely at ease and comfortable with myself, I feel alive and enjoy being in public.Today I feel comfortable when surrounded by many people; I am able to take in people's compliments and open up to them too.The food issue has been completely solved; I eat freely in people's company and feel totally free to eat whatever and whenever I want.At the end of the treatments, I was still in the army and enrolled in an army career. I saw myself eating in the dining room with everybody without any problem and in total freedom.In the past I felt even pressure to get into the dining room, not willing to be noticed, only a strong desire to disappear. Today, I get in the dining room and feel comfortable with myself when eating in company of many people. It doesn't bother me anymore.I personally feel that the treatments allowed me to release a serious discomfort, I got my life back. My relationship with food changed completely, and today I am able to be a part of the society and enjoy it!
I arrived at Arian Lev Center when I discovered that I had an advanced breast cancer along with a cancer of the lymph nodes. I came to the center because of serious physical pain I had at that time as a result of chemotherapy.I fell into deep depression because of the tremendous pain. The doctors told me the lamp was too big, I needed to cut off a large part of the breast and the lymph nodes. They said the cancer was spreading out too fast and that I had no chance to survive. I called out to God to direct me and tell me what to do and where to go. I cried for days and prayed. I heard about the Arian Lev Center a long time ago, some time before I had cancer, many people advised me to get there, but daily life, work, children, prevented me from making the move. Overwhelmed by the mental and psychological distress, I decided not to give up and started treatment. I was really happy and relieved to hear it was possible to undergo the treatment through Skype. I live in the south of Israel, so it was really difficult for me to get on a long distance ride because of the severe illness. I couldn't leave the house for long. During the first therapy session I was so broken that I was unable to cooperate. I asked to stop the treatment; I couldn't deal with all the pain accumulated in my heart and bones. But my therapist forced me to keep up with it and led me straight into my internal organs; into the ones that were wounded as well as the other ones. Along with the treatment, I discovered that my heart was closed and that I wouldn't allow myself to feel anything. I really saw my heart distress and refused to let it go. I slowly released the distress in my heart when my therapist got me into deeper levels of introspection. I could get down to the cause of it and even release it completely. During the treatment I started to connect back to my feelings and my senses, I released my emotional blocks. Suddenly I learned to love myself and accept myself and slowly my emotional blocks dissolved. My life changed, I go to chemotherapy with less pain in my body now.In chemotherapy, I listen more to my body, I talk to it and relax my body parts. It empowers me. The treatments at Arian Lev Center changed me radically; they made me become a loving woman able to give and receive. The relationship with my daughters had changed and my bond with my parents strengthened. As for my husband, I suddenly can feel how much I love him, how much I am connected to my beloved husband, now that I am connected to my feelings.About the cancer, the frightening and big cancer became so tiny that doctors decided to cut it only partially. I can tell you that the doctors were really stunned when they got the result of my physical. They said I was out of danger and that I earned a new life. I was happy as I have never been before, I overcame my cancer, got myself back and earned my life back!
I arrived to the Arian Lev Center because I was looking for personal answers and wanted to know more about the subconscious world and myself. When I met Arian for the first time, I was amazed by the way she could read me, tell me things about myself I never told anyone, things that personally didn't even pay really attention to. She could get right into my soul and tell me things I knew were within but never dared to reveal. The conversation shook me; I was sitting in front of a woman that did not know me but understood so much what I feel, who I am, what I am afraid of, what I am running away from.
The meeting with Arian left me with a strong impression, and then I set up few more appointments with her. In treatment I was exposed to deeper and deeper levels of myself. I discovered all kinds of different parts of me that I thought I would never discover. I uncovered deep emotions within that have been repressed, which I never related to or even express. I found out that I always tried to please my mother and do things the way she likes. I found out that I kept a lot of anger towards her and actually was really mad at her. I discovered that I repressed my femininity and tried to hide it under piles of fat. I found out that I was simply afraid of myself and my inner strength as a person and a woman. These five meetings with Arian shook me up and brought me to a turning point on a personal and intellectual level. As for the weight Arian told me then, "Hen, don't worry, your excess of weight will disappear as if never was." Indeed, that is what happened, after these five meetings, without even noticing my weight dropped without any effort. The deep connection to my feelings and to the different parts Arian saw in my subconscious made this change happen. I kept living the course of my life until all of the sudden I realized my body changed and dropped the pounds off. A year later, I got back to the Arian Lev Center as I felt ready for series of treatments with Arian Lev therapists, I felt that I was ready to a more in-depth therapy, a more personal journey. I first underwent the first therapy phase- the connection phase in which I discovered things about myself never known before. I connected back to myself, my body, began to listen to my heart, what I feel and what I really want. I connected to my physical sense of hunger; know what my body wants and what's right for me to eat. I started to love myself and shed more and more pounds. I realized how much I was disconnected from myself, I understood how I tried to hide my personality, the artist within me and my femininity. Today, a year after the treatments, and two years after my first meeting with Arian, I must mention that I am totally a new person; I think otherwise, behave and feel differently. I listen to my body and its needs and connect to my femininity. My message to people- Instead of always dealing with what you eat, start dealing with what you feel, dare being yourself and then the overwhelming weight presence will disappear and the desired weight loss will follow."Hen
During our conversation, I was very impressed by Arian's explanations and the examples she provided. In those days, subconscious and personal therapy topics were a pretty common language for me, since I had intended several workshops and undergone many treatments.
But something touched me in the conversation, something made me feel otherwise and two months later I decided to grasp up my courage and give it a chance.
I mostly wanted to work on my femininity and my relationship with my feminine body, and how it is to feel like a woman in general.
Within my family, from my mother's side, being a woman is considered being weak. My grandmother gave birth to two daughters at a young age, like most women in that period; she felt that being a mother prevented her from evolving and learning. And so when I was 20 years old, she told me: "Do you realize that when I was your age I was already a mom of two while you, on the other hand, are free!... "
The treatments have helped me a lot getting rid of this feeling.
I realized that I had repressed and hidden my femininity and that the motherhood and femininity were very sensitive subjects in the family.
I found out that I had burned in my subconscious a conditioning saying that being a woman= weakness and that my femininity and my career path and development couldn't work together.
Also, I found out that if I focus on my femininity my career will be stopped and won't get on an evolving path professionally. I discovered that connecting to my feminine body is dangerous and so I always tried to hide it, I was afraid to expose it, for people to look at me, I was afraid to draw attention because if so, it would be dangerous.
In treatment I released these conditionings and succeeded in connecting to my femininity; loving my body, finding the courage to show it to the world and feeling proud of it.
All of the sudden I love it, all of the sudden I find that being a woman is beautiful and I'm so proud of it.
Today, one year later I am happy to say I got rid of my anxieties and fears, I enjoy my job and got promoted. I enjoy being in a relationship like I have never enjoyed before, I celebrate my femininity every day more and more. And two month ago my wonderful partner proposed me! We are getting married soon, and I plan to be the most beautiful and feminine bride ever! And it makes me so happy…"
I wanted very much to reach self-fulfillment and especially find love and get married. I met many girls and always had a lot of opportunities in that field, but I couldn't really make something out of it. I could go on a date in which I really wanted it to work, but it could never take off to a higher level, I couldn't really relate to women, express myself, and actually I would burn it out before it even started! I heard many complaints from women saying that I am not connected to my emotions, that I'm not sensitive enough and cannot understand the other sex. I arrived at Arian Lev Center because I wanted to open up and connect to this unknown feeling that is called love. To be honest I was very, very skeptical and didn't believe fully in the therapy process. I tried many methods and treatments before and none of them could really help me break free. The most critical moment during therapy was when I released the conditioning I = cancellation. It was as if there was a command in my subconscious which said "everything about myself is cancelled, turned off". All what I want, think, feel and believe is cancelled." When I released this conditioning, something weird and wonderful happened to me. I felt like a part of me was locked in childhood and is now slowly maturing. All my senses and emotions that were turned off awakened, and then I felt like I'm a teenager again inside my body! As if every day I am filling a gap of many, many years! Finally I felt like I was born again and now I can have my life back. My expression ability improved, I was able to say things that I couldn't say to no one. I now express myself easily and I experience everyday a whole new world of feelings and express them. In terms of intimacy I'm glad to say that I am in a relationship with an amazing divorced woman, mother of two. And when I think about it I am quite surprised, I couldn't see myself succeeding in a relationship and now I am right there, and it flows easily and naturally. Beforehand, going out with a woman was stressing me out, I would be restless. Today I can say that I just go with it, I don't think about what will happen, or happened, I'm simply enjoying the experience. This treatment has changed my life completely and I am everyday thankful for it." Yossi
Along with the process I got deep into myself and I got back to all kinds of the past memories I repressed. I knew they were lying deep within me but wouldn't give them much importance. In treatment, all my childhood came back and I realized that my daily life was driven by those same memories. In treatment, I felt I regressed, that I got back in time trying to fix things that I had not resolved until then. The treatments helped me making amends with my life and connecting to the feeling of love rather than criticism.
I found out that I was driven by the conditioning love= abandonment in my everyday life. In love relationship, I had a hard time getting in touch with women. In my family, I felt a strong disconnection between me and my parents, and instead of confronting my personal issues I would run away from them and dive deep into work.
When the love=abandonment conditioning was released and switched to love=security, my whole world changed, I connected back to my parents, the bond between us turned out to be a complete new one, a deeper and more intimate one.
During the process I went through, I felt from within that a new life made of love was coming up and made me feel and understand what is to be a family. Today one year after, I am a total different person, I feel complete and that gives me a lot of self-confidence, I discovered a deeper meaning about life. Once I was really confused, my self-investigation and the treatments I underwent made me resolve unresolved things with myself. I today understand who I am as a person and where I want to go in my life. The treatments at the Arian Lev Center changed me completely and still have a huge influence on me since I keep making additional changes each day of my life allowing me to move on, not feeling stuck anymore.
Today I realized I went back in time in treatments only for myself, to make amends with my life, change it and push it forward to a better place.
Thanks for the new life.